Feast of the Solivagant

an epic of weird and visceral gastronomy

The abyssopelagic stillness murders sunlight, and breathes a banquet.
Four tables stretch beyond sight,
Heavy with brine.
On their writhing quadrivium, geometry forgets itself.
There is a sound of sibilance,
A hiss of hunger,
A soft C shifting sour.

The deipnosophist arrives first,
Smiling a diaphanous curtain of etiquette.
He speaks of marrow broths
boiled from the bones of limerent saints,
of matutinal gluttony beneath blood-orange dawns.
He does not eat.
He only tells.
With incendiary words,
searing, oilset tongues.

A pot-valiant knight lumbers in next,
Flushed with fermented dreamfruit.
His breastplate clangs with jentacular remnants,
Eggs boiled in the sweat of fevered gods.
He laughs,
Cachinnates,
Then stabs a slab of unknown flesh
That redames his gluttony beneath his fork.

The acersecomic child sits on a high-backed chair of cartilage.
Hair snakes down in thick, choking ropes.
Her eyes,
Opsimath orbs of late-bloomed wisdom,
recogitate every movement.
She watches the meat breathe.
She watches the meat think.

Then comes the agathokakological thing,
Composed of hands and hooves,
Languor and lightning,
Its finger’s edges scripturient,
Full of mouths murmuring recipes.
The cacography of hunger scribbles across the walls:
Spells in spastic strokes,
Menus of mellow madness.
Patrizate demons echo chefs long devoured,
Cleavers swung with ancestral might.
Bêtise is no longer error,
but a course between the entrées.
It brings the centerpiece:
A solivagant abomination,
Glazed in black molasses,
Stuffed with a heart still beating,
Still dreaming of its noctivagant endeavors,
Through butchered hills,
Through spice-thick winds.

The air turns sweet with peccability.
One may sin,
But only if the dish requires it.

And now, you—
Yes, you—
Are the final course.

Do you not feel it?
The sauce congealing on your spine?
The fork tonguing your thoughts?

Come, dear guest.
Join the feast.
It has been waiting,
Since the first hunger
Swallowed a scream.

The Gambler’s Hollow

He rode in, dust-bitten,
pockets lined with tarnished silver,
eyes burning under a sun-bleached hat.
Cards snapped, whiskey swirled,
the house always had its fill—
but never enough for him.

The dice called him brother,
the deck shuffled with lies,
the weight of his purse
rose and fell like the tide.
A king at dusk,
a pauper by dawn.
His laughter turned to curses,
his curses turned to prayers,
and his prayers,
turned to nothing.

He lost the last of it.
Coins rattled in other hands.
His own, empty now,
cracked, curling, reaching for something,
anything, to make him whole.

He wandered full of nothing,
shoes full of dust,
heart full of rage.
Loss sharpened his hunger,
not for money—no, never just money—
but for the feeling.
The chase, the risk, the game.
He was the hound. The rabbit.
The blood in the dust.

Trees.
Roots deep, branches stretched to the sky.
No numbers,
no wealth.
Only umbrage,
and lull.

A stray dog followed him one night,
ribs sharp, eyes soft.
It licked his fingers, tasted his hunger,
and gave him nothing in return—
but company.
He should have kicked it away.
He didn’t.

The river croaked,
slick bodies slid under the moon.
Eyes,
wide,
waiting,
endless.
They needed nothing.
He hated them for it.

One night, luck kissed his hand.
He won.
Again.
And again.
Gold piled, the weight of it,
familiar,
but hollow.
The hunger shrank,
the greed remained.

He stopped chasing.
He didn’t need to anymore.
No more dice, no more risk.
Just counting.
Measuring.
Owning.
His fingers traced the edges of wealth.

And without hunger,
without fire,
he felt nothing at all.

A ghost remembered him.
A man with dead eyes and a bullet in his gut.
A man who once begged him
for the last of his coins.
Begged him for mercy.
A man he had laughed at.
A man now laughing back.

The ghost came in nightmares.
It took his warmth,
left him cold in golden sheets.

The bouncer knew him,
and did not care.
A shadow in an alley,
a fist like a hammer.
The gambler hit the ground,
and the ground welcomed him home.
Ribs cracked, blood pooled,
and he felt something at last—
pain.

In his final breath,
the dice rolled one last time,
and he thought—

Of dirt under his nails.
Of morning sun on green fields.
Of the weight of a shovel in his hands.
Of a few coins in his pocket.
Just enough.
Just enough.

The Horned Huntress Hungers

Slick with night’s dark blue spit,
the land drinks the cold.
Black lines of conifers,
bone-ribbed,
needle-fanged,
grief-spined,
and vein-twisted,
gnaw at the horizon’s throat.

A woman kneels,
coaxing fire from splintered bone.
The flame emerges screaming,
vomits light into the corpse-air.

She feels it.

The Gaze.

It crawls up her spine,
a gaze with a hundred tiny legs,
skitters between ribs,
gnaws at marrow.
She does not turn.
She knows.

A man walks from the trees,
one of the dead.
His shadow bends,
it writhes,
it fractures,
it starves,
and it devours.
Half his face is ember-lit,
the other—
a messenger of something wrong.

He extends a hand.
Smoke curls from his fingertips.
Not the fire.
Not the cold.
Something else burns him.

The trees tremble.
The beast watches.

Its horns rake through power lines—
fireflies burst caught mid-scream.
It does not blink.
It does not breathe.

The night grows red.
Above,
the swollen moon sways—
pregnant,
vast,
terrible,
dreaming,
thrashing,
aching to be the Sun.

Whorls

The Veil
I move but I do not move.
The ground,
if there is one,
shifts beneath me.
All around,
the color of closed eyes,
the weight of tears,
the slow collapse.
No purpose.
No time.
No end.

I reach, but my fingers do not know touch.
I speak, but the words are swallowed.
Here is the origin of silence.
Here absence curls into my veins,
and I am a thing drifting,
adrift,
adrift.

Thrum
A sound.

A whisper of motion.
A stirring,
a tremor,
the air being torn.

Wings.
A hush,
a sigh,
a slow insistence,
a deepening drum.

I know they are close.
Somewhere in the heavy dark,
something flies.
Its beating,
its constant rising—
it does not stop.
It grows.
It grows.

Clutch
The darkness breaks in ribbons.
Coiling tendrils,
white smoke,
lace torn from a dream.
They do not fall; they twist,
reaching,
reaching—
I do not want them to reach me.

Hands.
Soft fingers.
A touch on the wrist,
a palm pressing my chest,
an embrace,
a grip—
they hold,
they squeeze,
they steal the movement from my limbs.

Silence worse than screams.
White that has not light.
They are white but they are not warmth.
They are the pallor of things left too long in the dark.
And I know,
if I let them,
they will keep me.

So I fight.
I tear,
I twist,
I break.
I run from the pale hush of their hold,
I escape,
they collapse,
they dissolve,
they dissolve.

The Gate, The Eye, The Light That is Not Seen
It opens.

A cleft in the black,
a vertical slit.
Not a wound.
Not a maw.
An eye—
watching,
watching.
A gate—
waiting,
waiting.

I advance.

I do not see light.
Still,
I know it’s there.
I feel it against my skin,
a pulse,
a radiance.
I do not know its color,
but something inside me names it—
Yellow.

Yellow that hums,
yellow that soothes.
Yellow that does not demand,
yellow that is.
The warmth of a flame.
The quiet stretch of dawn.
The shimmer of pollen drifting in a summer breeze.
A blush of sunlight touching mountain peaks.
A flicker.
A mellow sheen.
A honeyed glaze.
The ripe swell of a peach.
The sunflower.
The dune.
It does not pull me.
It does not push me.
I exist within it.

I close my eyes.
The darkness is still there.
I let go.
And I do not fall.
I do not fall.
I fall.

Black

Black,
in myriad forms, a cloak of endless hues,
Atramentous shadows bleed into the edges of my sight,
the charcoal sketch of a dying day,
a dying planet,
a dying world,
its ember-soft remains against the duskiness of the sky.

Coal lies buried deep,
smirched by the weight of time,
inky veins,
midnight rivers of what’s forgotten,
flowing beneath the crust of eons.
A pitch-thick silence hangs,
funereal smoke drifts,
from singed dreams and ashen hopes.

Sable night, swathed in swarthiness,
an obsidian sheen reflects my sombrous heart.
The niello of stars burns faintly,
silver smirks against my melanotic skin.
And the raven, with wings of denigration,
cuts through this inkiness,
a fleeting shadow across the moon’s pale face.

Swartness lingers,
tar-like,
clinging to breath and thought.
It is the soot of forgotten fires,
the ebony truth that loiters
long after the flame.

Once, the crows spoke of melanism,
their voice a funereal hymn to the sloe fruit’s bitter bite,
the kind that stains lips with its essence.
Even the smoke whispers of this:
the ink of words left unwritten,
the obsidian shards of dreams.

There is beauty in this world,
in the raven-black canopy of stars,
in the singe of forgotten coal,
in the darksomeness of wild things.
Ebony branches claw at the sky,
by a dusky sun that fades into jet-streaked horizons.

Darkness is not emptiness;
it is the fullness of mystery.
A sombrous smoke that curls upward
like a prayer,
unanswered,
but still offered.

Black is a world entire,
a raven’s cry in a midnight forest,
a smirch that marks the soul
and makes it whole.

Beware. Don’t chase your dreams with blades.

Beware. Don’t chase your dreams with blades.
Steel splits shadows, but not the things that cast them.
Your sword will slice through silence,
and all you’ll hold is echoes.

You may stand atop the broken backs of foes,
bloodied but upright—
yet victory feels lighter than smoke,
and tastes of iron dust.

Put down your weapon, ere it will turn to bone,
bleach beneath the sun you outran.

Stand still,
where the four lakes stretch beneath the sky.
Hold your breath where the five gears grind below.
Let them spin and not catch your heels.

Listen.
The wolves sing beneath the moon.
Hear the chthonian gods whisper in the stone,
in tongues older than hunger,
sharp enough to sever the threads of fate.

The earthly kings build with dust and call it law.
Ignore them.
Their crowns of thorns are woven from dead roots,
and their wisdoms are cages that shatter in storms.

Your will must be the seed
Death sows into the fields of oblivion.
Only then will fire bloom,
blind and searing.

Step into light so fierce,
you call it darkness.

River, Traveler, and Shore

«Let what comes come,» whispers the wind,
A call to open arms and unshuttered windows,
To embrace the unfamiliar guests of fate
With the curiosity of a child
And the wisdom of the old.

«Let what goes go,» sighs the setting sun,
A gentle nudge to unclasp clenched fists,
To release the ephemeral joys and sorrows
That fleet like autumn leaves
In the relentless river of hours,
Leaving only echoes in their wake.

«Find out what remains,» hums the heart,
An invitation to journey inwards,
To explore the enclosures of the self
Where echoes turn to susurrations,
Revealing an eternal flame
Unflickering in the draft of passing days.

Here, in the sacred stillness,
Lies the pertinacious core,
A compass pointing firm
Through storms and calms alike,
An anchor in the shifting sands,
A constant star in the ever-turning sky.

On the cover of what comes,
In the dismissal of what goes,
Lies the essence of our being –
Unwavering, persisting, true.
For in the bravery of change,
There rests a changeless truth:
We are the river, traveler, and shore,
Ever flowing, ever still.